that lasted like 2 seconds but if chilled me out a lil bit
I still feel shit s i g h
all I want to do is smoke a lot and bang my head against the wall
it’s just not cool man,
I was kinda happy alone
and then you came along
left for four months
came back and idk if I want to start again or just move on and flirt with people over the Internet I like to do that
I just
nope
I could be so fucking happy
I’m 16 and I think I could’ve broken a record for screwing up things that make no difference and my life plummeting because of it
I am having trouble
coping with thoughts
of being with someone
like being in a
committed relationship
how can people do that
it’s not something for me
it seems really plastic but I want to get that surgery on my face whilst I still can for free otherwise I’ve got to pay to get to London and to have injections in my face every three months where as whilst I’m still in education it’s free
dad told me I’m not getting any praise unless I get A*’s in everything, I am not a fcking genius even your favourite daughter didn’t get that so leave me the fuck alone
I have had like 7 mood swings today, before and after exams etc i just don’t like it but I am just really sad and thoughtful and stuff ATM and I want to be able to stomp on my own head rn
